What I love more than anything is hearing a message that resonates deep to my core. Today it was about how we all are trying to live our lives within a story line and put on a mask to play out a role. And based on how you were raised, there are different influences that shape your beliefs on the roles you’re meant to play. It made me ask myself, “What false story lines am I playing?”; this made me sigh and laugh and shake my head.
Anyone who has been around me over the past few months knows how profound The Anatomy of Peace has been in my life. It showed me how my beliefs and behaviors get shaped by being “in the box” and seeing others as objects instead of people, and that my favorite box to hide out in is the “need to be seen as” box. Oy! Needless to say, today’s message reiterated how important it is for me to get out of the box and see others as people whose wants and needs are as important as my own, AND it emphasized the story lines and roles I have been playing instead of standing in my Truth. Ouch!
I have been going back over my own values and belief structures. I’ve been digging deeper to find the origins of where some beliefs came from and why I value what I do. I’ve uncovered that some things are a direct result of things my parents have said to me growing up while others came from the traumatic events in my life. My subconscious assigned value and meaning to all of it. It took it all in, catalogued it, and put each piece into my inventory. It turns out there’s a bunch of malarkey in there! Not all of it, but there has been some serious weeding of what I am choosing to allow to impact my Now, and build my Future.
So how do you find your own personal Truth? You have to be honest with yourself and strip everything down to your core. You have to know your values and have healthy boundaries set around them. You have to examine the times that you’ve struggled, and ask yourself if you have honored yourself by living by your values or have I betrayed myself? Have I fallen into the trap of Perfectionism? Have I twisted and perverted the Truth to punish myself when I don’t hit “the mark” never realizing that it's an impossible standard? Do I fear that I’m not making the “right” decisions and feel that I’m not good enough? Will I ever measure up?
At the end of it all you will find your Truth; the pure shiny joyful Truth! And it will be scary at first, but you will ease into Being who you were created to Be! You will notice how you light up and the wonderful feeling in the freedom of not having to hide behind your public mask. Allow yourself to push through the fear to find that you can create your own epic story line that is filled with joy and purpose! Enjoy simply Being You!